Healing Up And Thinking Forward

My throat does not ache when I try to eat, so feeling a lot better. The house is still clean for now but entropy will do its thing. 

I was reflecting on why my creativity has stalled. I've presented a few different reasons but most of it boils down to will vs effort and results. If I were to push through the half of Restful Sleep I wrote and got back into the cadence of the tone of the story by rereading, then I finished it up...how would it perform? I hope well for a new piece. I desperately want to make it a split two parter I write now and post like a week between. 

Granted, the story is fun but it was kinda just there for a filler to write easily. Sadly, so much of what I try to write doesn't come easily. Mainly, I start writing and I know dad will need me or something will come up and it's like getting through a performance on a piano and you need to pick up where you left off and it takes a while to get into it. Then another interrupting moment comes. However, I have lived through this for years. I can push through it. The problem is having the will to do it. Finding that will be tough. So that is basically the reason that crops up. I wanted to touch more directly upon some inspiration I have in the future and why I love ideas I have and want to write them.

Kinda psyching myself up for these ideas.

This creepypasta idea - I mentioned this but I had an idea for a young woman stuck in the woods with a winged creature which might be turning men into women to feast on them. The appeal is searching what she thinks she knows and whether the creature has already affected her. And other twists that I know in detail already. Knowing the end provides a confident guiding focus. Also I hope to post this anonymously online somewhere and see if it catches fire.

Restful Sleep - It is a fun idea that spoofs magical shops and provides a character who is pretty well happy with zappy and has fun with it largely without "ooohhhh nooo you got turned!" It is just a fun take. The problem is once the character is transformed by the stress-leeching bed, I then have to figure out a means of conflict for a pure Tara joy-esce character. Also figuring out how someone like that thinks is a huge challenge for someone/me, whose only relief from the hard-knocks of life is poor memory of bad stuff . But it is good to step outside my comfort level of creativity. It's just that much harder.

Radioactive Femininity - I am truly about 25,000 words off the "end". Really the end is Kenzie has a class or two where she meets up with some friends, gets a surprising reaction, has an argument with Kat, sees Wes again, then by lunch a TV crew is around due to the report Kat made. This goes in an unexpected way. We learn what we should know that our narrator is highly subjective in what they say along with some other things. Then the conclusion was always going to be Kenzie finding out her mom has had a stroke. It tracks with my real life at the time. The only thing was I moved events from June to October of 1998. Really the book would end openly with Kenzie walking around the hospital after visiting her mom and somehow getting her to laugh and relax. As I did too. Noting that the only way I could make mom happy would be if she had brain damage beforehand. Sounds like Kenzie too. There then might be a transitional short around Halloween and then I would want to transition it into a series of tales that reflect a lot of my life before any followup.

Abby 6 - This story is bashing on my brain to get out. My thought for the flashback bit will be continue it leading into what we know happens. The characters will feel emotionally-defeated, to reflect the sense from part 2's ending. I honestly only know broad strokes of that conversation. But Abby in part 3 will be weeks later in the Eraser attack recovery. I am visualizing 9/11 with signs posted for missing persons and little memorials but in a more high-tech way. Hoverbots with holo memorials in the sky. Abby forgetting the shape of her regular face as she wears Gail's, slow work of restoring what was lost. Another meeting maybe referencing the promise from the last meeting with Tim. And some Tim Travel .

What excites me is there are survivors of amongst the Creators and their refuge world recalls Trimountaine after a Roman art style and is on the twilight area of a tidally-locked planet around a dim red dwarf to give an underworld-like feeling. Allison Longbloom will be Abby's birth mom as the teaser suggested. Vivian and the remains of Iao will figure and the multiverse will be irrevocably changed forever. Time travel will also feature as I cheekily teased. Abby and Tim. What are the rules of time travel? I am partial to how Connie Willis writes it and I like the sensibility from "The Story of Your Life"/Arrival that the future behaves kinda like a quantum wave form. You can see the future if you follow a set path. If you deviate from the path then you have no idea what happened. Knowing locks you out but not knowing allows you some freedom. I wonder if the same applies to the past. We will see Marcus more than once again. The ending excites me because it does indeed change everything. So much so I must omit it from future stories talk for now. But everything is not gonna blow up. Sorry if you were down for that. Got lots more stories to tell with my characters.

Abby 7 - Memories of the Last Word - I wanted an idea that mirrored The First Book from Abby 2. There is a word no one can have access to or some rather eschatological consequence results. Meant to sound a bit SCP-y. The new status quo and casus pax for traveling between worlds will be detailed. Abby now has a companion in her travels. As the title suggests, memory and Dark City-like explorations of identity will result. Totalitarian government that uses amnestics like water and rewrites people to further their cause.

Abby 8 - The Fabric of A Universe - I still wanna hide some of this story but here is what excites me. Abby still has goggles and she is still working out the kinks in them. She travels to an interesting world but her goggles are having a problem keeping a lock. Little glitches but here is the rub. Time passes in this place much faster than in the rest of the multiverse. If you miss a single second then over 500 years have passed and everyone you were just talking to is long dead. I love this idea by way of Voyager orbiting a planet where this happens and other stories. Abby has entire religions pop up around her because she seems like an immortal goddess . There are, however, those who aren't as happy with this arrangement and lasting enemies are made. 

Abby 9 - The People Within Us - This one is fun because I really want to tell a chill Abby story where some random anomaly is happening. A guy can pretend to be many different people and milkshakes/ice cream taste wretched and no one knows why. Just a fun mystery setup with a lot of character and some zappy.

Abby 10 - Along the Missing Streets - Because neither Doctor Who nor Harry Potter or Hellboy 2 have done disappearing and reappearing secret places well. Philip K Dick did...with The Commuter. I also really want this show as I am the potential (metaphorical) reincarnation of PKD - en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philip…
But taking that idea and just running with it is exciting.

Abby 11 - The Quiet Sounds Inside Her Heart - I already relayed what excited me about this pitch - majorkerina.deviantart.com/jou…

But yeah, I am a bouncing ball of creativity and excitement for my ideas. Getting a way to direct it actively again soon is a challenge I intend to overcome.